It has been such a long time. I haven't written in here since last July. Many things have changed in my life, I went from going to school in Southern Cali and having a horrible time to living back home to going to school SSU and loving it. I have been through soo much in the past two semesters but of course in the end everything came through. I am really happy where I am in life. I have amazing family and a great boyfriend. Through the hard process with starting SSU three weeks late I met a handsome young man. When I first met him I knew there was something but who knows which way it could go. We have been dating for 6 months strong :) Sure we have some fights and such but at the end of the day I know I have him to be with. And we will actually be living together in August and getting an apartment near both of our schools. I am really lucky to have someone who cares about my feelings, who loves me for me and just appreciate me everyday. I have family that was and always will be there for me in anything in my life. They supported my decision to come back home and i am so thankful for that. When I came back home I didn't want to dissapoint anyone but in the end everyone was happy for me and it was just amazing to have all that support. I am glad to be writing again. I like writing my thoughts out freely. I am thankful for everyone in my life. I am the happiest i've ever been. I love my family, boyfriend and friends. I am excited for what the future will hold. And i am glad to be talking to everyone again. And this summmer I am having fun shopping around and finding stuff. Life is like a wave you never know which way it may lead you.

Jennie

Current Mood: happy

Whether you are skinny, average or overweight weight is never a fun subject to talk about? Well for awhile was doing really good and eating healthy but then i slipped again. I looked up my mass body index and I wasn't too happy. I am not gonna do it the way girls do when they starve themselves. I am gonna be healthy about it. I am just gonna eat really healthy and not have many carbs.

I think physically i will feel healthy with eating better and exercising 4-5 days a week.

And plus so much is going on in my life.... running help relieves stress.

Peace out
Jennie

Current Mood: frustrated

My high school days are coming to an end, including there is only 12 more days left including finals! I am so excited! woohoo! I want to end this high school career. I have had many good and bad memories. I am so excited for my new future, new faces, new memories and new places. Well, a lot has gone on lately it has been so hard to actually gather all of my thoughts. As a teenager most of us fight with our parents lately my mom has gotten on my nerves. 16 years I was starting elementary school and now I'm graduating. I have been on the same road all my years of public schooling PLEASANT VALLEY, SINALOA and San Marin. I am lucky to have experienced all that I did. Most of the people in my class I don't ever want to be freinds with but....there are a few that will always be my friends...Here they are: Charmader- she has always been there for me and gave me great advice for eveyrthing. I hope she moves to sd I will miss her. Carla- I haven't known that long but she is a great and nice girl and we have many fun times together Christian- OH MAN! He use to be known as the one who always calls to RSVP at my parties first lol..When stacie and other people were mean to me he let me know that he was there for me and he was my friend no matter what. He cares what kind of music i like and he likes getting my approval on good and band local bands Dairin- we have known each other for ages and we just began our friendship...I love her Amber-she makes me laugh everyday..when I am in college I will just call her up for a laugh Krissy- she is someone who is there and listens to me and makes me happy and she is pretty awesome!!!! I love you all and when I come visit home I will hang out with you guys. "Descions you make dicate the life you lead".

Yesterday was an extemely hard day. I attended a funeral for someone who comitted sucide. That was the hardest funeral I have ever been to. I can never imagine what her family is going through. I want people to remember if you think bad thoughts of sucide please get help. Many people love you a lot and would never want you to fanish from the face of the Earth. I hope everyone is doing well.

I am so excited for the future. Love ya

Jennie

The future has so much for me. It is insane. I am so excited about graduated and getting out of this boring town. But at the same time I know i will miss it. I know I act so cool now and that I won't miss it but I will. I have been e-mailing a bunch back and forth with friends who live there about puting stuff in storage and different stuff about how often were going to hang out and go grocery shopping and such like that but I am actually thinking about it more and i am so scared to be on my own. I know it's part of life but I won't have my mom doing things for me. It is gonna be hard. She's not gonna be there to remind me to do things. I am gonna be on my own. It is going to me a whole thing experience. I am excited but scared too. I am sooo happy I have Jerry and Babs down there because If i didn't who knows what I would do. And I two girls down there that are like my sisters, Bailey and Canarie. I am really excited. I just want the school year to be over and I can be done with all these people in highschool I don't wana talk to anymore. So far who I want to stay in touch from high school: Christian, Carla, Charlene, Amber and Mallory. That's about it. I am going to try my hardest to stay in touch. It is going to be hard since I will be like 600 miles or more away. It is gonna be hella fun. But I am coming home a month after school to see Bacon Brothers and Sammy Hagar who was lead singer of Van Halen. I am so excited and scared for my future. But once I get there and get through the first week or two I will be set. Love ya
-Jen

Today is Day of Silence. I am sitting hear in class and I have realized how hard it is to keep quiet. I just feel really horrible for those feel they don't have a voice in society or that are quiet. I grieve with the families who lost their sons or daughters who went to Virigina Tech. I really wish the adminstators would of woken up. The english teacher turned in some of the kids stories that were about killing but the adminstators said it didn't show anything. People say he barely talked or if he told it was like one word answers. I am very sorry. I wonder why no one spoke up and said he really needs help or maybe someone did but there voice was silent and nobody heard. I am deeply sorry for all the familes. I just wish everyone in our society with let everyone have a voice no matter what gender, religion or orientation. Thanks for listening. I hope you have a good day and think about the voices that don't get heard everyday. Today is just one day of silence and others don't get heard every single day.
-Jennie

I don't have much to write but the small amount is valuable in my book. If some things go wrong in your day instead of having negative energy and getting almost, there is a better solution. To think about the future and how you can fix it. And I realized that everything is working out in the end and everything is good. There's only 43 days left of high school it's so strange yet exciting at the same time. I am done for today.
Jennie

Hey. I really am so much happier in my life right now. With all my future and everything going on. I am so excited for what my future holds me. And I was letting a simple boy take my happiness away from me. And I changed that I don't even care what happens with us. There is no us. I am so proud of myself. I see you on im and sure im dissapointed we don't talk as much as we usually do but I am not scared or shaking and waiting for you to answer to me. I am confidte with who I am. I am me and no one can change that. I am really proud of myself for looking at it this way. I am ready for high school to be over. Just a few more months and the best things are ahead of me: senior breakfast, disneyland, prom, safe grad, graduation!!wohoo. I can't control my excitement. Now, when people give me compliments I actually say thank you with dignity and I believe them. That's an amazing start. I really do believe that Mr.right is out there for me just I haven't met him yet! To make things better I shred more pounds I am so happy!!!! I am just really happy right now.

There are two people who have impacted my life tremendously. One person he would give anything for nature. He put his life on the line. He would do anything for animals and nature. He has an amazing accent. I can't even describe his impact in my life. When I heard the news that Steve Irwin was dead. I was in shock. I couldn't believe it. I watched his show off and on. I would watch him when he was talk show. I couldn't understand why he put his life on the line. He was one person I could never be. He was someone I want to be like. Not nature wise. But I want love my career and have the passion he had so that I would put my life on the line for it. I really admire Steve Irwin and everyday when I see animals or just when I think I think about him. I am deeply saddened that he pasted away. I was hoping I was going to be able to meet him. I was watching some youtube videos he was in. He had some interview towards the end of his life about he wanted to be remembered for passion and love. He will remembered for passion and love. Steve Irwin made an impact in my life and if he did in yours share it with always. Steve Irwin will always be remembered.

Another person that is impacted and influenced me is someone who's alive. I will not mention is name but I had him for history for two years. He was always there when I had something wrong I could go talk to him and know he wouldn't tell any soul. He was always there. In my year book he has written amazing things about me but I never knew what he thought of me. Well he wrote a college recommendation and sent it to my mom. I read it WOW! It thinkg a lot. He even called me a hero and a GEM! I felt really loved. I am really happy. I love you all. And thanks for the influences in my life
Jennie

I had an interesing week or can I say SHITTY! On Friday everything seemed me going on then when I got to school my friend christian canceled on me so I was stuck with money but walk home in freezing cold. None of my friends could drive me home. Finally I talked to Krissy and I went out to lunch with her, me and her boyfriend. We had a lot of fun. Then my mom and I went food shopping and stuff. And then I got a message from my work on my cell. I went outside to hear it and she said to call right away. Usually on the message she tells me why she calls so I was a bit worried. I called and she said I am laying some people off and your one of them. Don't come into work today. I said ok bye. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't stop crying it hurt me so bad. I talked to my mom. My dad was on a business trip so I talked to him to. I also read a letter that one of my teachers wrote for my college recomendation and it made me feel better. I actually was invited that night to go this Rabi's house that my sister knows and goes to. We went i had so much fun. They have the cutest kids. I had so much fun. We talked about everything. This girl was like 10 years old but so mature. I had so much. Then on Saturday I had a blast I went to the city with my mom and we walked everywhere. It was a fun adventure. I bought a book it was fun. We walked downtown and went to Macy's, Disney store, new westfield mall, gap and old navy and borders. Then we left to drive to Oakland to pick up my dad. And we had trouble finding the freeway but we did. We went to Jamba Juice and starbucks. WE had fun and shared many laughs. We got to the airpot my dad landed. And i saw him walking and i huged hm so hard we almost fell. I am so happy to see him. It is going to be hard when I go to college but I will hopefully make friends. Then we got home and stuff..... I was tired but didnt go to bed to 12 or something. This morning I woke up in a fine mood. I didn't wake till 10 lol. I went on the computer to send a few emails and stuff. Then I was talking to my friends and just things started to crubble down. My friend stacie is being extremely mean to me. She expects to tell me things and for me to not say anything. That's not any kind of friendship and I won't be myself then. I don't get it. And she's going with this english boy to prom who I kinda wanted to go with but she has known him longer so I understand. I don't really care bout that but she's giving me hella attitude that i won't take. I can't find anyone to go to prom with and that's buggin me too. I don't know. I am just having a shitty time. I read new friends. I want to go to college. Well that was my weekend.
Jennie